August 2009
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July 2009
36 posts
Unrequited...
You always ask me why I keep trying. You really don’t know? Or will you not admit it to yourself? I did finally just come out and told you exactly why not too long ago. You just looked at me, never changing expression! (At least you didn’t frown, you were such a happy girl that day, but noncommittal does seem to be your favored attitude). You could also ask C, she tells me (and you) that I...
Tarnished armor
You stopped loving me long before I stopped loving you. You refused to call it quits because you wanted me to continue to be the bad person in this relationship. It made it easier to tell all our friends that I left and that I cheated. It made it easier for you to be deemed the white knight, Mr. Perfect and to get sympathy from everyone. It made it all nice and neat, like a pretty package...
french kissing
Rick,
Yours was the first penis I ever saw up close to my face. That was pretty traumatic. I didn’t intend to see, but apparently YOU intended I see it, since you whipped that thing out at me and pulled my face close. Nothing like being 13 and having some wobbly, slithering tube-like structure coming at your face like I was stuck in some messed up 3D porn flick with tentacles.
But I...
He was really that hot
Dear really hot guy at the pool party,
I want to thank you for one of the most memorable sexual experiences of my life. Not that the sex was all that great, or maybe it was, I don’t quite remember. I was too distracted.
I saw you coming out of the pool, the water running down your skin, muscles rippling, and I thought to myself, “holy shit, that guy is way too good looking”. ...
oh my god. i am so hiiiiiiiiigh right now.
bwahahahahaha
You're my lobster
RMD—
I have thought about you in some way every single day for the last almost 14 years. Not always paragraphs of thoughts, sometimes just a couple words. Not always romantic, sometimes I’m even angry or frustrated, but mostly it’s a “I’m happy to know him” sort of thought.
You are the first and last man I ever made love with. I hate that term. Makes me...
Craigs List ;-)
I should have known better. If I wasn’t such a goddamn coward, I’d be having this conversation face to face, rather than writing this all out in a fevered, frenetic pace. You seemed so real at first. Not fake like the rest. I put my heart out there every time, and every time I get burned. God, I’m such an idiot. At first it was like a dream…NO. Better. It was like a...
You lied to me
I believed in you. I put all my faith and trust in you. I lived by your principles secure in the knowledge that if I did as commanded I would be given blessings and my life would turn out well. I truly did believe in you at one time. I loved what you stood for and I thought you were good.
I see now that you lied to me. Right from the start you never did tell me the truth. If you could have been...
It really happened
Dear D, We met at 17, when I was a senior in high school. Met through your cousin Tracy who was my friend at the time. I thought you were entirely cute, looking like Danny Amitullo from the TV show Fame. Weird reason to have a crush on someone, but what the hell, I was a teenager. You though, had a thing for Veronica, Tracy’s other friend, but she wanted nothing to do with you. Lucky me,...
Almost no regrets
Dear P, You probably hate me now, because you haven’t reacted to my attempts to contact you and mend our friendship. I wish you’d let me explain what happened. I admit I handled certain situations wrong, but you just don’t know everything. When we first met, I was truly attracted to you and wanted a relationship with you and the only reason I didn’t show my feelings was...
Thanks for the Kiss
Dear Linda (I think), One night several years ago I was up in the mountains at that one bar. I was feeling kinda low, just about life in general…mostly I guess angsty cause I was 23 I think. Anyway, you walked in with a few friends, but every head turned toward you, because you were pretty hot. I walked back to where you were, and started chatting you up. You said you were in law...
I won't chase cowards.
You seemed so strong when we first met in our younger days. But over time you let something break that. Now you claim to be strong, but you are a weak little baby that can’t fix her problems because she refuses to see what they are. Since your latest flip-out I have given a lot of thought to the history of our friendship. I am not blameless at all for us falling out of touch; in fact,...
Friendship isn't a one way street
A, My group of friends often wondered why I became friends with you. They remember the middle school loser whom no one liked. People change as they mature and I didn’t think you were such a bad person. We actually had a lot in common. I got to know you and I considered you a pretty good friend. That was, until, you decided not to tell me things because you “didn’t think I’d understand” (which is...
Stacey...
Dear Stacey,
When I first met you during the interview at the company, I thought you were a decent enough guy. Even though you told me you googled me and I thought that sort of strange, I didn’t pay much attention. (I guess now that’s a common practice everywhere. Whatever.)
I was hired for the job, great, no problem. Pay was decent and I had my own space and was left alone to...
It still hurts
I loved you. I would have moved mountains for you. You treated me like a piece of shit and yet still I loved you. When he was born I knew you’d split. The look on your face last year when you finally saw your son for the first time, was priceless. Yes, he looks a lot like you, I see you in him every day. I gave you the chance after that to be in his life or not and sadly you will miss every...
I wasn't it for you
I still miss talking to you. I wish you had loved me the way I did you. I’m sorry I wasn’t it for you. I wish you hadn’t done me the way you did, but it’s life. I wish you the best and yeah I still miss talking to you.
Leslie
Leslie,
I hate what you have done to my brother. He cowers when you are around. He is so miserable and lonely. You don’t allow him friends and you berate him like a child. You hate all of us and we know it. The venom and filth that flies from your mouth used to haunt me. It doesn’t any more. You are a bitter, self hating, controlling and scared bitch. You want everyone to be as...
I swear we're just friends!
Dear B,
When we first started talking I felt like we made such an incredible connection. I mean who talks on the phone with someone for 13+ hours straight?! You seemed to know all the right words to say and I fell for it, hook line and sinker. I was recently out of a relationship and you knew that, yet very early on you said those dreaded 3 words…more than once!
We talked about the other...
I hate you
Dear Chris,
I hate you. I hate everything about you. I hate your tattoos. I hate that you made my life a sexual one way too soon. I hate that I never felt safe in my own house.
You get a nice life, with a wife and 2 kids and I get to live every day with the knowledge of what you did to me.
You know what you did. It eats you up inside. You drink so much because of it.
I wish I could let the...
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The Shelly letter
Dear Shelly, When I was about 12 I told my parents and brother that you were a two-faced backstabber. I would have said two-faced backstabbing bitch, but I would have gotten in trouble for the bitch part. In high school you met my brother. He was one of those very popular guys that all the girls wanted. Football player, wrestler, tall, dark hair, blue eyes. He had quite the ego on him. For...